I don't want reality...I just want disney... .

An Exceptional Moment

Will: What if we were to have good timing. For even an hour. What would that look like?

Alicia: I think that would look like an exceptional moment.

- The Good Wife S2E23: Closing Arguments -

Liking someone or just attracted to the feeling of reciprocal liking?

Seems to be under a spell that I just can't break away from... ...

Would this turn out to be a mess again?

Why can’t I just shake off the drama and pull myself away?

Why am I acting as if I’m under some kind of spells?

Why can’t I continue to distance myself?

Why does the most obvious choice of action seem to be the hardest thing to do?

Why can’t I just truly believe that Disney doesn’t exist in the real world!?

Not to me at least.

Take The Lead

Sometimes it happens in an instance.
We step up, we see a path forward.
We see a path and we take it.
Even when we have no idea where we're going.

-Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy S8E3: Take The Lead-

You have no idea how hard it is to pretend it doesn't matter and stop thinking and hoping for it... ... .

Katy Perry - Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh, oh, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Maroon 5 with Lady Antebellum - Out of Goodbyes

M2M - The Day You Went Away

Taylor Swift - White Horse

Taylor Swift - Back To December

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know.

False Pretence

Survival

We've all heard the saying. It's one of those things you learn in seventh grade science class. Adapt or die. Adapting isn't easy though. You have to fight your competition and off their attacks. And sometimes, you have to kill. You do what you need to do to survive.

- Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy S7E21: I Will Survive -

Happy Alone

"There is a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasnt because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don't have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on..."

- Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy S7E22: Unaccompanied Minor -

Live in the moment and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering...It doesn't matter if I don't possess it.

This is the Life I am living and will continue with Courage

That's Me... ... To Love and Accept Me For Who I am... ... .

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and yet expect to receive a different outcome.

Inner Peace

Déjà vu

What happened in the past 2 weeks was Déjà vu all over again...you thought you already knew what was coming and where it would lead to...but you still fall into it for the thrill of wishing the slightness possibility of a different outcome. Well, it's probably the hope of getting it right for once...after being in the wrong for like a million times. Naive? Maybe...there is a saying "when the Stupid neither forgive nor forget and the Smart forgive but do not forget - it's the Naive that forgive and forget".

Reconnecting

Too caught up with working life which led me to stop connecting with my inner self & expressing my inner thoughts for a number of months...that shouldn't be the way...a quote from Lee Iacocca - "The discipline of writing something down is the first step toward making it happen." On that note, I should take baby steps into reconnecting...starting from this moment... .