Frustration and Despair are about to worn me out. Is it really worth putting up such a fight? I don't know. 'Living for oneself' comes with a price and I suppose I am paying for it now. My defences are really very weak now...sometimes I can really feel as if I am slowly...slowly...slowly...fading away... . If I have a remote control for my life, this is the phase that I will press the button 'fast forward'!!!

The last 72 hours had been a roller-coaster ride. Abso-fu*king-lutely glad that it’s over!

Over 20,000 words in the short span of 8 weeks!!!
It's crazy!!!

I’m a gal from equatorial region & yet I couldn’t take this scorching heat of 40 degrees. I can’t write in this blazing heat – it’s knocking me out!

I want to GO to New York City; NOT writing about 'New York Convention' & 'Washington Convention' !!!

Definitely one of my travel destination within the next 5 years!

“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”
-Carrie Bradshaw (Sex & The City)-

What I need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring me to this very moment.

And this is the moment I can choose to make everything new. Right now.

"We all sit around in a circle and suppose, while the secret sits in the center and knows." Robert Frost

What happened on Saturday was bizarre – is the ‘missing’ mutual or am I making a mountain out of a molehill?

There is no 'Lost'

There can't be any 'Lost', when you never ever have 'It' (in any instance) to begin with.

This is who I am

I am who I am because I am the combination of a phoenix and an antelope.

An antelope that can't be tamed and a phoenix that burnt itself on a funeral pyre so that it can rise from the ashes with renewed youth to live through another cycle!

Decisions

Probably in life, it doesn't really matter which side of the fence you get off sometimes. What matters most is getting off at the side of the fence that you feel most comfortable with & deemed it to be best for yourself, after having made that decision.

Letting Go

Letting go is a hell hard lesson in life because whilst it is easy to form ‘attachment’, it can be quite a painful experience and feeling when one realised that it's time to let go.

Nevertheless, there are times when the situation has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of that ‘attachment’, so that one can fulfill one’s life path.

Even though the past memories can be tormenting and serve as roadblocks but one may still choose to hold on. But it is only through leaving those tormenting memories behind and taking a leap of faith into the unknown could life be allowed to reveal what one is truly capable of becoming.

It takes time…but I know I can eventually free myself from whatever chains I have confined myself with.

I have done it before and I will do it again.

Recalling the word 'fancy' is frustrating after knowing what it can actually imply. Duh-Dumbwit!